You can't be what you say you are because you have NEVER demonstrated that you are those two things to anybody so stop fronting and actually be yourself and STOP pretending to be like everyone you fucking meet. You completely lack the ability to authenticate either of those as alcohol and sex have eroded what small brain you once had.

Just be quiet for once.

meaning stop BEGGING for fucking attention!

What is happiness?

Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy. A variety of philosophical, religious, psychological, and biological approaches have striven to define happiness and identify its sources.

Everyone always says how they wish they were happy or wish they could find happiness. What the don't know is that you don't have to wish to be happy and you don't have to go searching for it. Happiness is all around you, you just have to make the best out of it. Being happy doesn't mean you have everything you ever wanted or you finally got a job and or got into the college you want. Being happy means that you can wake up knowing that you're still alive, knowing that you can leave all your problems behind because its a new day, knowing that you don't have any grudges towards people, knowing that no matter how hard people try NOBODY can make your happiness go away. Well, that's how I like to think about it. Happiness is golden. Stop searching, its right in front of your eyes. :D

Since I stayed home today I thought to myself that it was a good time to update my blog. So, I had the funniest dream last night, I guess some people were in it that I don't consider to be friends or enemies, they are purely NOTHING to me, but besides that, I guess this person was talking smart to me and I was like "oh hell no bitch" so i grabbed her by the collar and punched the shit out of her. Wooo that was healthy. Um, I'm pretty sure that I have to go to an eye doctor, my eyes have been bothering me a lot lately.

Why do girls now adays think its soo cool to flirt with a girls boyfriend and try and take him away and shit, but what IS cool is that if anyone ever try and make that happen, I WOULD be more than happy to beat your face in. :D

that shits insane lol.

I, honestly, think you are the scum of the earth, I mean come on you STILL to this day run you're mouth constantly. Do you really think you're affecting me at all? Why don't you take a break from being a dumbass and think to yourself "hmm maybe i shouldnt talk shit for once?" lol that would be great.

On the other hand, I love my bresfros. I have like 20 guy friends more than girls. Woo for me :D

I kinda, tad bit, forgot I had a blog. Damn, I havent kept anybody updated on the xreallifex. So, on Friday I rolled again, gah i'm not down for that kind of high anymore, just saying. Um, I have advanced my bro kicking it n shit. LOL. I am a gee at halo odst. I smoke a lot. I am reading Human, All to Human!!!

finish this later,

dude today is me and toms 7 months :DDDDD

Me overanalyzing. Really though, Do you just plan out ways to talk to her??

Anyways, So me,tom,JAVI!,devyn,jilly went to fremont lol it was a bumpy fucking ride, literally. The way back everyone was trying to act normal, lol for good intentions. After we were smoking HELLA weed in kg's dorm and then Christianfunnyindianbutreallymexican told us the cops were ...

ill finish later

haha hella stoned as fuck.

Jilly-she's missing, and mom wants to know if you know where she'd go.

me-hell fucking no, i don't give a fuck about her. She's missing? good for herr!!!

Dorm buddies-lmaoooo jenny you're hella funny.

So far....so good. I've been depressed all day today. Over thinking & over analyzing is what I'm best at and it never seems to do me any goood. Me and Tom have been with each other for 6 months, no beezy better step through unless she wants some missing teeth. :D I'm serious, he is my bestfriend and the love of my life, bitch better recognize.

Show this Saturday, I get to see broskeezzz!!!! maybe.

I Never thought I would get jealous. I Never thought you would make me feel like this.

:/ story of my life, right?

I'm in the Kill Zone.